Sigh.
I don't fully understand why things have gone the way they have, but I respect my Heavenly Father's will and recognize that He has dealt very kindly with us.
It's like Blaine said yesterday, if everyone's problems were tossed in a pile, we would gladly dive in and retrieve our own. Our little world has been shattered and our hearts are broken, but in the grand scheme of things this isn't the worst thing that could happen and there are so many others out there suffering more. It doesn't feel that way but we know that it is true.
At least we have one another. At least we have our oldest son here with us. At least we have all of you to help us. At least we have the gospel and the knowledge that families can be forever to sustain us. At least we have the hope that we can have more children. At least our Shiloh didn't have to suffer. At least...
We are so blessed. We are so fortunate. Life is still so very good.
I have my husband Blaine and our two beautiful boys. Three miracles.
I am the luckiest girl in the world.
4 comments:
Hi Hillary! I think Blaine's comment is SO true. Once we look around, we realize that maybe our challenges are ones that Heavenly Father has equipped us with the necessary strength to overcome. Keep up the faith, you are doing great. If we didn't have hope, what would we have? You are awesome! At the end of the day you can definitely say that you gave it all you had, emotionally and physically. I know your Heavenly Father is so proud of you and wants to hold you in his arms and make the pain go away. Our thoughts are with you continually...
I don't know if I would choose my own problems, but I would definitely choose my current support group.
And maybe that's the point. Those we know and love, those we depend upon are the ones that make our trials survivable.
And who DOES understand why things happen the way they happen? Ugh. No one. I promise you.
Hi Hillary I was talking to Katie this week and she told me of your blog and what has happened with your family. I am amazed at how strong you have been through all this. We have lost 2 babies, 1 was a little boy we named Gage. I was 20 weeks, and delivered him stillborn, we were able to get handprints and hold and look at him, but I was very angry at the Lord and it took me a long time to realize that the Lord knows what is best. You amaze me at your strength and faith. I am praying for you and your family. I would love to keep in touch through blogs ours is theclosefam.blogspot.com
Oh Hillary, (and boys) I am so sorry. I wanted to check your blog the other day and discovered that I had a lot to catch up on.
The short time that I knew you and your sweet family it was obvious that you were special and strong members of the church. You are always a ray of sunshine, and I think your positive attitude and desire to help others is awesome. I hope you are continually comforted during your hard loss.
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