Blaine came to visit last night and to go with me to my ultrasound this morning. Details to come...
Come to think of it, last night was our first date we've ever spent alone--hmm, wouldn't have pictured it in a hospital with me on bed rest. Oh well, it was memorable.
Aside from gazing into each others eyes like two love-sick teenagers, we came to a decision.
We're naming our baby--now.
This was prompted in part by the fact that I constantly refer to this baby as 'they' or 'them' and it confuses people, and we just felt like it is time.
I wouldn't say that we consider this our miracle child. Every child is a miracle.
But this baby is definitely a gift, and we've named him/her accordingly (ah hah--that's right, we are still waiting to find out if this is a girl/boy)
The name is
Shiloh
[Hebrew for "His Gift"]
We got some good/sobering news today about our little Shiloh. The good news is that Shiloh is growing like a champ and developmentally seems to be just fine. The less fantastic news is that we don't know how long this will continue to be the case.
Somehow when I filled out the order form for this pregnancy I accidentally checked the 'ripped placenta' box. Whoops. My mistake.
From all of the data, we think that there was a tear or slight detachment early on which compromised the amniotic sac causing it to rupture. This in turn resulted in my uterus shrinking, further exacerbating the placenta and causing increased bleeding.
Thankfully, the placenta is still working because Shiloh is growing, and as long as the bleeding doesn't get worse we're in good shape. The consequences of increased bleeding are not fun to think about (further placenta tearing or abruption-i.e. me hemorrhaging, Shiloh losing access to oxygen, blah,blah,blah, really boring stuff)
So we are in a race against time: my placenta's health against Shiloh's development.
And we are staying upbeat--because I'm an endurance kinda gal.
Let me say this much. I know more than ever today that Heavenly Father is very much aware of our situation and has ordered things for our good. The trail of tender mercies is long. We aren't going to look back, and we're not going to try and get ahead of ourselves.
Slow and steady wins the race. And our Savior has offered to carry us when it gets too hard.
Joshua 1: 5, 9
"I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee withersoever thou goest."
14 comments:
I also found you through the Charlotte Amalie blog. I'm thinking of you and praying for you. I wish you best of luck. As a lucky mother of 3, I feel for you and admire your grace in this challenging situation.
Eve in Maryland
Love the name. I am glad you chose to name him/her now - it will be nice for you to be able to refer to the baby more easily and I think makes the bond you already have even stonger.
So you've really never been on a date just you and Blaine until now? I'm glad he was able to come visit again.
I love that scripture. It is this years theme for the YM and YW so I have been thinking about it quite a bit. It is so comforting.
I'm so glad Shiloh is doing well. You are both in our thoughts and prayers.
LOVE the name. It's perfect! That's awesome Shiloh is growing!!! I am glad you had Blaine with you, husbands make everything better :) love ya bunches
Sorry i deleted my comment on accident. LOL Mady is helping me type.
Perfect name for the little one. In years to come I think that Shiloh will really enjoy reading about what mommy did to make his/her life possible. Your blog is and will continue to be a great family treasure forever.
I love the name i can only imagine colton trying to say it shisho haha love that little guy and u too =]
Hill, I LOVE the name! And I love that it will work perfectly for a boy or a girl. I just hope whatever you have, I end up having the same so that we can have cousins the same age and gender. That goes for Megan too, so I guess I am hoping you and I will both have girls. :) Miss ya, love ya and we're always thinking of and praying for you!
I love the name Shiloh and the meaning of it. I am so glad Shiloh is still growing great! I pray that your placenta will keep on going for a while longer!
Hillary, this post vividly brings back many memories and feelings for me. There is a comfort that comes when we learn to trust in the Lord and accept His will. I know it's not easy to sit on the sidelines and wait and wonder what will become of your dear babe, but the peace that comes from knowing that Shiloh is yours forever....no matter what; that peace will keep you afloat throughout this journey.
But from what I read, you already knew that, didn't you :)
Take care. Sending sweet thoughts your way.....
Hi again! I'm sorry I haven't commented in a while! My in-laws have been in town and we went to Nauvoo. I'm so glad you're still pregnant! I was a little nervous as I brought up your page. I'm soooo in suspense over whether Shiloh is a girl or a boy!!! How do you stand it!? Do they have any guess as to how much longer they think you'll go? I know, I know, they've been wrong before. :) But I want to come visit you! Tell me if you would prefer I come sooner or later...
the name is perfect. i love your attitude. it's such a hard situation, we'll be praying for your body to hold out as long as it can.
I was intrusive when I told Blaine that you should have a name ready for the baby. Please forgive me. The name is perfect. Well done!
Post a Comment