I had another sleepless night tossing and turning.
Upset tummy I thought.
By 7:30 I was leaking more blood than I have up to this point and cramping.
Yes-not good.
But I have to tell you something.
I was so calm. Like--unreal, this isn't normal kind of calm.
And if you know me--you know that that isn't like me.
I just knew that it was going to be okay, and I wasn't ruffled by it.
It was unreal.
I know that this was a tender mercy from Heavenly Father. I don't think there is any logical reason why I am still here, well and pregnant except for the explanation I've given.
And I want anyone who reads this to know that none of this, absolutely none of this is me. He is the reason we are still here. He is the reason I was calm this morning, He is in charge.
Thank you for your continued prayers. We needed them so badly today.
It would be lovely to look into the future and know what was going to happen.
But we can't, and if we could it wouldn't make me realize my dependence upon the Lord.
I would be less grateful when miracles like today occur.
I am so grateful for Him today. I am so grateful for your prayers today.
I think I'll go get some shut eye.
It's been a long day.
Love you all.
Hillary
5 comments:
Hi Hillary,
I know your in a fight against time here. Are the doctors hoping to get you to a certain week?
I remember spending 10 days in the hospital after Nathan was born and having a second surgery. Nights were the hardest for some reason.
Stay strong! Thank heavens for tender mercies. They are everything.
Love,
Michelle
I am so glad that you and little Shiloh are ok. We're always thinking of you. Your strength and courage amaze me. I feel like I am benefiting from all your experiences, but not doing any of the work. I'm sure it will catch up to me. :) We love you and you'll continually be in our prayers!
So everything is okay right? Was the cramping just a freak thing? (Sorry that I am asking you about cramping for all the world to see...)
I'm glad your ok and that you still feel at peace. I hope you DO get plenty of shut eye tonight. Restless nights are horrible. We've continued to keep you in our prayers (I think my kids are so cute that they seem to always remember now to add you to the list).
Sweet thoughts coming your way from Washington....
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